Senti Moments

For the first time in my whole adult life I cried because of a man! I never imagined myself shedding tears for a man. But tonight I did.Iniyakan ko ang isang lalaki na I don’t even know if he deserves it.  Hindi naman talaga ako mahilig mag-senti o kaya magkwento ng kadramahan ko sa buhay. I’m not comfortable talking about feeling and emotions at kung ano pang anik-anik ng tangegot na heart.  But I just need to ease it up a little bit. You don’t actually need to read this, just scroll down or hit the back button.  

Ang sakit pala if you’re expecting something from someone, tapos kahit 1/8 lang ng expectation mo hindi man lang na meet.  Tama nga sinabi ng isang epal na friend ko, “ikspik-ikspik! masaktan ka lang!!!”, paminsan-minsan tumatama din pala ang lukaret nya.  Ngayon ko lang din na realize na mahirap palang mag havest sa Farmville pag sabay tumutulo ang luha at sipon.  Natuluan tuloy sipon and keyboard ng laptop ko.

“It’s better to love and lost than never love at all.” Hayzzz, sino ba nag-imbento ng sayings na yan? Gusto ko syang maka-usap para ma-explain nya sa akin kung anong basis nya at na comeup nya ang ganyang conclusion. It hurts kaya!

Imagine, I travelled 3 hours para makasama sya but he didn’t even joined me for lunch! “I have appointment sa lunchtime…blah…blah…blah”, pack-sheets naman almost one-week namin pinag-usapan ang pagpunta ko that day tapos bigla may appointment.  Exchange sa total 6 hours trip ko ay ang halos 2-oras na pagsasama na walang kibuan, date namin sa National Bookstore, ang saya ano?

Well, I’ve no one to blame but the stupid ME. Tatanga-tanga kasi.  Okey na yung drama ko few months ago na “…i think it’s over”, kaso bigla namang sumulpot at dinramahan ng ungas na lalaking ito ang Ninang nyo ng “…i miss you like crazy” at “…lets start all over again” ayun nauto na naman ang matalino si Byter.  

Tested and proven na talaga ang kasabihan na “pagdating sa pag-ibig na bobobo ang mga matatalino”.  I want to share to you ang poem na ini-mail sa akin ng isa ko pang friend na tanga-tanga din pagdating sa love.  Ewan ko kung saang sulok ng cyberspace nya pinulot to. Ang ganda ng poem, this time naka-relate ako. Dati wa-epik sa akin ang mga kadramahan na yan.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang title ng poem, at di ko rin alam kung sino ang author.  If ikaw ang author nito, please come forward and introduce yourself email ka sa akin sa byterology[dat]gmail[dat]com para mabigyan kita ng credit sa iyong magandang likha.  Ito na yun:

Love is like a sharpened knife,
that could cut you deep and tear you apart.
Love is like the deep blue sea,
that could get you drowned when it fills your heart.

Love is like an endless night,
without a single ray of light.
You could get lost,you won’t know what’s right,
for it could take away your sight.

Love is like a raging storm,
that takes you away and could leave you alone.
Love can be a treasure you own,
it can be a diamond,but it could turn to a stone.

Love gives hope but could leave you helpless,
it can make you smile,but could cause you sadness.
Love is pure and yet it can be faked,
it can make you feel better,but it could cause you great ache.

Love gives assurance,love gives trust,
but it sometimes get broken and beaten by lust.
Love gives pleasure but it also gives pain,
it could play with your mind,and leave you insane.

Love can be a home or just a simple shelter,
gives comfort when you need,but could leave you right after.
Love makes you complete but could also break you down,
Love gives you wings but could drop you to the ground.

Love is a gift but it could turn to a curse,
it makes you do your best but it could bring out your worst.
It could turn the wisest into a fool,
for love is a very dangerous tool.